am i ready?

yesterday
i went to Nagoya University for the psychology grad program open campus
lots of info
lots of worries
lots of challenges

i don't know if i am up for it
future in a year is unknown
and it's scary

yet
when i was driving home today
a hymn was ringing in my mind
'His eye is on the sparrow
and i know He watches me'

surrender
i thought i have already learned the lesson 2 years ago when i was waiting to get accepted to my present job
but i guess i have to learn it again
surrender

it's not easy
yet, it's necessary

am i ready?
i don't know

but i am willing to walk on the path that You have planned for me
and i know that You will lead me step by step