settled...unsettled...?

sometimes...

i wish i can be as articulated as my friend A

as bold as my friend B

as creative as my friend C

as diligent as my friend D

as expressive as my friend E

as faithful as my friend F

as generous as my friend G

as humorous as my friend H

as important as my friend I

as jolly as my friend J

as keen as my friend K

as lovable as my friend L

as musical as my friend M

as noble as my friend N

as odd as my friend O

as passionate as my friend P

as qualified as my friend Q

as receptive as my friend R

as smart as my friend S

as talented as my friend T

as unique as my friend U

as venerable as my friend V

as weird as my friend W

as ( ) as my friend X (whatever he/she has that I don’t)

as youthful as my friend Y

as zealous as my friend Z

sometimes, I know myself so well that it disgusts me
sometimes, I know nothing about myself that it scares me

I can be really unsettled with who I am
Am I asking for too much?
Just a little more like her? Just a little more like him?

Being 24…almost 25…
I found myself still searching my identity

I need to learn to be settled in God
(but is it normal to be unsettled with myself…just sometimes?)