count down: Day Six

goodbye...my 6 mths only apt...you will be missed

moving day

hiro and his parents came to help

where am i moving?

i have no idea...yet

i am now back to life living with suitcases

this instability before marriage can drive me nuts...sometimes

as much as i long for excitment and surprises and adventures in life

i think i can only enjoy all the above to thier fullness under the precondition of stability
am i contradicting myself?!?

well, i am not complaining though
i have everything plus a tv, nice bath, heating
and lots of companies
i even can park my car in a garage

God is more than good

count down: Day Five

side by side

day five started right

i woke up
biked down to the bakery
got myself some nice fresly baked rolls and buns
filled my tummy
went back home
and then i just

cleaned. packed. moved. cleaned. packed. moved.

he always offers to help
and i always say "no, it's ok! i can do it"

my dad thinks i should learn to be more like a "GIRL"
aka not to be so tough and try to do EVERYTHING on your own

that's i think it's something i will never learn
should i learn? do i need to learn?
allowing boys to show their strength when needed
i totally agree with it
there is nothing new for me to learn

the thing is i rarely am in need
if i can handle it, why bother asking for help
if i can't handle it, first try, then try again, until i can handle it

but i know there are some truths in my dad's words
the art of allowing your other half to be invovled
the art of sharing
the art of team working as husband and wife
the art of carrying the yoke together as one
the art of being side by side

tomorrow
i will try my best to let him be invovled
i definitely can't carry the washing machine and fridge on my own

count down: Day Four

at this very moment
as i am updating my blog
i am extremely exhausted physically and mentally

a great day
warm sunny weather
took a few children and teenagers to Kyoto for a day trip

went into the huanted house for the 3rd time...and hopefully the last time in my life

the travelling? the walking? the screaming? the huanted house?
i defintiely had fun
but as i walked home from the bus station
i wanted to be left alone although i was alone
i wanted to talk although i didn't feel like talking
i wanted to hear someone's voice although i wasn't in the mood of listening

have you ever have the feeling that you are so exhausted and tired that
you want to be left alone but you want to be hugged at the very same time?

i am now at that very time
i know it's just a burst of mix of emotions that will end in a blink
but i hate it
i hate to pity myself
i hate to feel vulnerable

bed, is where i should go to now
my one and only remedy
i know everything will be new again in the morning

count down: Day Three

happiness can be found anywhere and everywhere...(taken last year when taking an afternoon walk)

happiness was transmitted through the TV tonight
i got to witness and celebrate my friends' wedding on TV today
it was just absolutely fabulous!!

i mean, what are the odds of having your wedding being broadcasted on TV nation wide

long story short
it was a variety TV program doing surprises for ordinary ppl
my friend's friend sent a request to the program and my friends' wedding actually got picked!!!
the program is hosted by Shingo Katori...
it might mean nothing to you
but Shingo is like the top star in Japan

the surprises were wisely and beautifully done
they even had fireworks at the wedding!!!

above all
i am so happy for them
T kun and C san: "Happily Everafter"


Wedding, afterall,
is indeed something very special

i am getting more and more excited for my own!!!

count down: Day Two

a sunny day
took the bike and headed down to town
i love riding on the bike
you are either too fast (vs. car) or too slow (vs. walking)
the speed is just right to savour the beam from the sun and the breeze in early spring

after figuring out more details about the marriage registration
i did a little shopping
a simple white dress
that i am planning to wear for a pre-wedding ceremony at our local church
this is my X times trying to look for a white dress
chicago, kanazawa, tokyo...countless internet search
nothing clicked

however, Day Two marks the day i found my simple white dress
i am happy the search is over
now
i have both my wedding dress for Guam
and my white dress for church
hanging in my room

i wish i can post pix of my wedding dress now
but hiro hasn't seen the dress yet
he wants to keep it as a surprise until the wedding day
so...pix of my dress will be posted after the wedding

count down: Day One

it's in 30 days

my WEDDING

i am suprised that both me and hiro are quite chilled
people around us kept asking if we are busy planning and preparing
to be honest

either of us are

Our minds are occupied by other things

His: the possibility of getting transfered to another department (which he doesn't want)

Mine: moving, documents and forms to be filled, thesis

but we are definitely excited

30 days seem to be long

but i know it will flash by like a thunder

gotta taste and enjoy every single second and moment from now until my wedding day

(my last 30 days of being single!!)

Day one:

packing, cleaning, moved my stuff to his parents' house

chatted with his mom and grandma over coffee and sweets

went to the city hall to ask for details about wedding registration (much more complicated than i thought)
prepared forms for school and grands
went to the gym

day one is just another usual day
but my heart is secretly counting and leaping in joy
just like the one year old me waiting to blow that birthday candle on the cake




making it a habit

to drink at least 1L of water a day

i know
on avg. 60% of the human body is composed by water
but
i don't drink water
i just don't
ever get thirsty?
of course!
always go for something with  flavor
tea, coffee, juice...water is my last choice

but i don't know what got into me recently
media? age? health awareness?
well, i started my 1L per day project a week ago and i am still sticking to it

one thing i learned:
never leave it until the end of the day
waking up in the middle of the night for bathroom is just simply painful